Christmas time is here!

So it just occurred to me that Christmas is in three days...dang.

I've spent this entire week off work and playing in the parks with my family Terrah and Tyler and my best friend, Maria. It has been a blast of a week but it has made me forget that Christmas is almost here!

It's December 22nd for crying out loud!!! Fortunately, everyone already has there gifts from me, so I don't have to worry about shopping anymore, but it still came out of nowhere.

Christmas will be weird this year as it is the first year I will not be home for christmas day since I was about 6 or 7 and that day we were at Grandma and Grandpa Wade's house. Also, I will be working Christmas day... This is the first time I have ever worked on Christmas! It will be a strange day because I work mid-day so it will feel like the day will just be another day. It's a little disappointing but I can deal :)

Fortunately, my parents are here for Christmas and right through til Jan. 1. We'll enjoy this unconventional Christmas together!

Well, anyway, I'd like to wish everyone a Merry Christmas and I hope you have a Happy New Year!

Game Over.

So, things with the boy have ended.

No worries, I'm not upset in the least. I'm frustrated with myself for letting as much slide as I did, but I do not regret the relationship. We were supposed to be in each others life for a reason and now that that time is over, it's time to move on.

We didn't end on the best of terms, but it is without a doubt, for the best. Here's to being in love, being loved and the hope for love in the future!

Gobble, gobble.

HAPPY TURKEY DAY TO ALL MY AMERICAN PEEPS!!!



Ah, yes. Thanksgiving. The great day of gluttony in American culture...Isn't it fantastic!!!

This thanksgiving is a bit strange for me. First off, I am working today...Disney World doesn't stop for the holidays!! It's strange, because I've never worked in an occupation where the day of the holiday is usually one of the busiest days! It's somewhat bizarre.

Also, this is the first Thanksgiving that I will not be celebrating with any family whatsoever... The only other American thanksgiving I've enjoyed was at the Barnard's with Tyler. This year, with Amy being "temporarily detained" in Canada, I am completely without a relation this holiday.

But it's o.k. :) I have really dear, close friends here and I will be celebrating this holiday with them.

So unbuckle your belts and pop that top button on your pants because Thanksgiving is here and we all have something to be thankful for so let's enjoy it to the fullest!


Things I am thankful for:
My testimony
The Gospel
Terrah and Tyler
My Daddy
Wonderful and ubersupportive immediate and extended family
Puppies (I miss my puppies!)
Great friends
The Buena Vista YSA Ward
Having people who love me
Lots and lots of really good food!
The ability to dance and sing
Working at Disney World
Getting in FREE to Disney World whenever I want!!!
Having a car
Being in love
Being loved
Good movies
Good music
Warm slippies and blankets on a cold day
My scriptures
Good books
Disney Firework shows


And most of all...being alive!!

Yep..

Yep, it's definitely real.

Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?

I feel like I'm in a dream...

As some of you know, I have been dating a boy from Brazil for the last month. Things are going very well. We both like each other a lot and we just enjoying being around each other. Right from the start we really clicked and conversations are never short.

Unfortunately, I am heading back to Rexburg in January...Only two months away. For this reason, for now, we are not using the terms "boy/girlfriend."

If nothing else we have both impacted each other's life significantly for the better and are better people because of it.

I have a hard time, sometimes, believing this is real and that someone actually likes me that much and that I have someone that I care for as much as I do him...It's like a wonderful dream...

I'll let you know how the dream ends ;)

*Sigh*

I'm having a very good week.
Although I've been very sick for over a week, it's been a good week.
Let's just say, great things come from Brazil... :)

It's a great, big, beautiful tomorrow...

I love my job.

I really do. And if I say so myself, I'm good at it too.

(yes, to the informed that is a line from Curtains)

I love working at Walt Disney World. Yes, standing on concrete all day is not fun and yes the bus system wastes half the day, but all in all, my job is really enjoyable.

It makes me so happy to see the joy on the little girls faces when you call them a princess, or the shock when you wish a little boy happy birthday and he is blown a way how you knew even though he is wearing a button that says so. It's little moments like that bring me joy.

I am also fortunate enough to work with great people and fantastic managers. Yes, I am very lucky....

Getting into the parks free and whenever I want doesn't hurt either :)

Welcome to the Wonderful World of Disney!!!

Because of the complaints of certain peeps, I am here to update.

As many of you know (I love that I'm writing this as if more than Terrah, Tyler and Megan read it), I have begun an internship at the magical and slightly overwhelming Walt Disney World Resort. I have been in Florida for approximately 3 weeks now and I am quite enjoying it.

Here is the gist of events so far:

(and by gist I mean one thing that has happened in the three weeks)

First off, I spent four days kickin' back and relaxing in the suite of the house my dad has recently purchased and renovated down here. It was a period of chill time I desperately needed.

As I was doing my kickin' back I look out the window and what did I see? No not popcorn popping on the apricot tree, but an armadillo! He was toodling around and diggin'. I found him fascinating! Armadillos to me, mean Florida, because on our first trip down here, on our last night, we were driving into the complex where we were staying and a big, fat armadillo waddled across the road and that was what completed Florida for us. So now, armadillos are a big part of Florida for me.

Anywho, the chill time was very nice for me as it was the first time I'd had the opportunity to chill since January. Yes, it was good.

There. I updated my blog. With pictures.

And Candy.

It is the end of the semester

I want to be done.

Motivation Management is from HELL

Bleh...

What the......?

I swear, that at the end of our dress rehearsal tonight, Glenn Beck was sitting at the back of the theatre....

If this is not the truth, would someone please inform who it was then?

Weird.....

Good Day, Sunshine.

Have you ever been in a funk and then very suddenly something happens that makes it seem like it was all a dream?

Well, that's what happened this weekend.

I have never been so happy and felt as complete.

Thank you to Terrah and Tyler.

I love you both dearly and I am endlessly grateful to have you in my life.

It's been a good day :)

You remind me of the babe.....

I just watched Labyrinth for the first time in about eight years.

I LOVE THIS MOVIE!!!!!

Growing up this was always my favorite movie. My siblings seemed to prefer The NeverEnding Story, but Labyrinth was always my love.

I was reminded tonight of the mad crush I had on Jareth the Goblin King... I started crushing all over again!

What is it about David Bowie in this movie that makes him so crushable?

It must be that fantastic hair and hot eye make-up! :)

Actually, one thing that I noticed as I tend to watch movies from a different perspective now, is that David Bowie gives a pretty stellar performance in this film.
He is both menacing and endearing (especially when he plays with Toby), vulnerable (especially at the end) desirable (in that bad boy "I want to give in but I'm scared to" kind of way)


I don't know if any of that makes sense, but I still love this movie. I love Ludo and Sir Didymus and his faithful steed, Ambrosius.


I was just as wonderful as I remember it being!!!

Ms. Lonely

I miss my friends......

I have friends but I feel like I never see them any more.

This is exceptionally frustrating to me.....

Dance with the Stars!

I just got a new work out video. It is Dancing with the Stars Cardio Dance.

It is sooo much fun!!

You get to do Samba, Cha-Cha, Paso Doble and Jive. It's so much fun!


If any one wants to get together sometime to do it with me, we could totally have a cardio dance party!!!

Let me know!

Hmmm, laughter really is the best medicine...

Can I just that I love my FHE family?!

They are the best! Very few people as of late, have been able to get me into the silent laugh, ya know the one where you can't really breathe and your laughing but no one can tell?

But these crazy folks repeatedly get me there.

Oh, it hurts, but it is so worth it.

I'd just like to say Thank You!!!




P.S. Sorry about the downer posts, it's been a rough week.

Fatigue has hit....

I'm so tired of stress.
I'm tired of not knowing, I'm tired of people who have nothing to do with my life putting their two bits in and I'm tired of being blindsided.

I'm just so tired.....

I'm reaping what they're sowing.

Sometimes I feel like I don't know who to listen to and who's advice to follow.

I tend to be a pretty loyal individual and when I hear that someones not doing something in a way I thought they would have, I get confused and think Why would they do that?

After a little thinking, I realize that not everyone thinks the same as me. I know that sounds like a Duh statement but it's something we all forget.

I guess I just get frustrated when I am not one who is prone to share stories of others and but am the one who gets hurt by that kind of action.

I don't know what else really to say about it. Only, I guess, that this is not an attack or judgement of any one individual.

It is merely an expression of my frustration. :)

A little snippity, snippity.

I cut my hair last weekend.

Like, eight inches!!!


I absolutely love my new cut. I feel more like an individual and it is more like me,

short and fun

(hooo I crack my self up!!!)

Anyhoo, in my new do I feel like an adult that I've grown up and I'm ready to tackle whatever may come next.

woot.

There you are, Peter!

I found myself today. Of course, it wasn't all on my own, but I found me just the same.

Lately, I've been feeling really out of it and lost. I felt friendless and alone, that there was no me anymore, just and empty shell of what I once was.

My frustrations came to a head when, in the last couple of days, some unfortunate timing made me feel as if a blog that was written in great frustration was aimed directed at me. I began putting things together in my head that only resulted in me feeling hurt and used.

Fortunately, for my sense of self worth and sense of ME, I have an amazing brother who cares for me and was concerned about my well being.

After a long talk with many,many tears and cries of frustration, Tyler helped me realize, I'd lost me. I wasn't being who I am. I was comparing myself to others and trying to fit in with the status quo.

It was a hard thing to take, quite honestly. I had always thought of myself as an individual, an independent who didn't need to fit in to be happy. I was in denial of the fact that I had lost sight of me , what I loved and who I wanted to be.

I had forgotten who I was.

Now that I have come to the realization of this, I am doing something about it.

I put in my application for a talent scholarship/award from BYU-Idaho. I had never thought of myself as deserving of any kind of award or recognition, but, hell, I have put more hours in to productions at this school than anything else in my life. I do it not for the recognition, but because it's what I love!

I have also decided to find something I like and get really good at it. It may be cross-stitching or singing or dance or whatever. But whatever it is I am going to excel at it. No more mediocrity for me.

Tonight I had a "me" night. I went out to eat by myself and then went and saw a movie, by myself. This is who I am. I don't need to have people with me to be happy. I was trying to be someone I was not and was hurting myself by doing so.

For the first time in a very, very long time I smiled while I was completely on my own. I know that I can be who I am and that the Lord will bless me for not bringing myself down by trying to be who I'm not. Satan uses our weak spots to brings down so we can share in his misery.

No more misery for me, thank you. I am who am. And that is all I need.

Alone on a Friday night

I came to the realization tonight that I have no friends that I "hang out" with.
I have plenty of really good friends who I love spending time with, but evenings and weekends, I feel so alone.

I used to have hanging out friends but now they are married and it awkward to hang out with married folks when your not married or even in a relationship. Don't get me wrong, I'm sooo very happy for them and couldn't wish for a better thing to happen for them.

I feel like I've always had this lack of "hang out" friend problem. I very rarely if ever would have friends over in high school. Although, I will admit to having friends over in elementary. Those were the golden years.

I'm so sick of being alone.

I just realized that by this time next year, I could be preparing to graduate.


Spooky.